Friday, July 6, 2007

Is this what I look like?

Yesterday I had a very interesting experience. On my way back to Nachitoches, LA (we went there for the 4th to see my wife's family) I rear ended a lady who was in her brand new car in Leesville, LA. To amplify the situation, I was driving a rental car (our car is in the shop right now from someone backing into us!) and had forgot my wallet (driver's lisence included) in Natchitoches that morning. So I was major freakin out about what was gonna take place. The first thing that happened was that the guy riding in the passenger seat of the car I bumped jumped out and started cursing and hollering at me (profanities included...). I apologized, somehow talked the lady driving into pulling off the road and not calling the police and handling the situation between us. After some discussion on in an adjacent parking lot, the fact that I am on staff part time at a church as a youth pastor came up and it was really weird how all of the sudden, even though I was the person who hit their vehicle, they began to stand straighter and speak differently. They put out their cigarettes, tried to watch what they said around me and such. While I appreciate this, to be honest it really kinda bothered me. I watched the movie "Saved" with Mandy Moore in it a few days ago and it just kinda reitterated what I gleaned from that movie. The world has a really weird perception of Christians, especially ministers. While the Mandy Moore flick might be offensive to a lot of Christians, I would actually recommend it for educational purposes. So that people will say, "Wow, is that what I really look like to the world?" Like I said, I really appreciate the people involved in the accident trying to not curse around me all of the sudden, but the point I am getting at is that I don't want a ministry title to dictate people's behavior around me as if I'm some holier than thou person that has to be addressed differently. I would have much rathered them be comfortable with me in who they were and understand that it's the gospel that makes me different. I would have rathered them see a guy in a tight situation that exercised a peace and calmness that isn't humanly possible. If I had it to do over again, I would have muched rather seized the opportunity to share Jesus with them than my ministry position. I hope this is making sense. Jesus asked the Father in John 17 that His disciples would be in the world but not of the world. I see that as something I should strive for, to gel into this world's system without compromising truth and while gelling in, at the same time having a radical difference about me because of my relatoinship with Jesus. The world will be hostile to the gospel, but they should be hostile because it's light exposes their darkness, not because they think Christians are weirdo's they need to put on a mask in front of.

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